Some people get drawn into an addiction unintentionally or through curiosity. At one point in his life, Duncan Muchira had many habits; some were easier to shake off than others. Read on to find out how he achieved his freedom.
“I was always the type of person to accept other people’s customs. So, when I was around those who drank, I did it too. I was never fond of smoking, but when I studied abroad in Holland – a country that is famous for having a liberal drug policy – I began to smoke weed every day, despite the fact that I was not a cigarette smoker. When I returned to the UK I tried to continue this habit, but the environment was different, so I gave it up.
Yet, one habit that I couldn’t shake off was pornography. I had been addicted to it since the age of 13 after finding an inappropriate magazine. My addiction then escalated to online videos as Internet access was easier. Porn addicts live in a cycle of pleasure, then guilt and shame. I was ashamed to watch it, so my pornography addiction was very private, unlike drinking or smoking weed.
As I got older, I wanted to stop, and I tried not watching porn for a few days. I would start off well, but idle moments would draw me back. It wasn’t easy to quit porn – it had formed a big part of my daily routine for years.
I was originally invited to the UCKG HelpCentre for an event and decided to keep going as the event lasted nine weeks. The hard-hitting meetings made me reflect on the way I was living. I would leave the service thinking about how I was living my life, and my conscience started to become more sensitive with regard to my actions.
Nonetheless, the more I attended the HelpCentre, the greater my desire to be free became. It then did not make sense to maintain a habit that didn’t give me pleasure, so I quit totally.
Today, I am no longer addicted. I am completely free, and I am now happily married and faithful to my wife, in public and in private.”