Argument, Arrest warrant, being torn apart, boiling point, feeling pains, full of anger, hatred, life could change, parents,
“I had reached boiling point and even carved ‘I hate my mum’ into my arm with a blade.” Looking back at my life, I can honestly say that it was nowhere near a 10. Arguments were constant in my house; my parents would argue so much that they only cooked for themselves. We even stopped going out as a family! My family was being torn apart right before my eyes. Eventually my parents ended up getting a divorce.
From then on, things went from bad to worse! I was introduced to pornography and started to get involved with men. Whenever night-time came, nightmares plagued me. The dreams were so real that I would wake up feeling pains in my body.
As I grew older, my bad behaviour got worse! I began to steal from my parents and would lie to them for no reason. My relationship with my mum was on the rocks; it’s as if our arguing imitated the arguing between her and my dad, as we would argue every day. I was filled with so much hatred towards her that I even went as far as to plan ways in which I could kill her. I would do things for her to become upset because I liked it when she wasn’t happy. I had reached boiling point and even carved ‘I hate my mum’ into my arm with a blade.
I was hitting rock bottom, and that’s how I found the UCKG HelpCentre. I was full of anger, sadness, grudges and much more. However, after learning and being made to understand that my life could change, through the meetings that I would attend regularly, I recognised that this change could only come from God. I decided to exchange my old life full of bitterness and hatred, for the life that He had promised for me in His Word.
As I did this gradually, I started to see the need for me to forgive my parents and myself for everything that had happened in my past. I was able to put the past behind me and was accepted into a private law university. My life was once a 0, but now I can happily say that I am living a life as a perfect 10!
Vanessa Glover
Post a Comment