The baptism of the Holy Spirit is not poured out on us for personal gain or benefit. We see the Holy Spirit guiding kings and prophets in the Old Testament through dreams and visions, and this was always for the benefit of all the people or kingdom; not one single person. In the same way, the Holy Spirit is given to a person so that they can lead others to salvation, and not so that they can sit at home or in the church enjoying moments of worship, while others are dying without salvation out there. 

Spiritual Cleansing – Forgiveness 3 

Closing this chapter of forgiveness, there is another person you may need to forgive, and that’s yourself. If you have done something in your past that you’ve never been able to forgive yourself for, remember that the Lord Jesus has already forgiven you. Yes, it’s true that none of us deserve this forgiveness, but it’s a gift that He chose to give to us. Accept that He forgave you, but you must also forgive yourself so that you can accept the gift of the Holy Spirit.