"I was addicted to TV and alcohol"
I don’t know how I got so hooked to TV mainly World Wrestling Entertainment (WWE). A friend of mine put the show on one day and from then on I was crazy for the programme!
I started to watch it every day possible, morning till night. It got so bad that I even lied to my mum that I was sick and would take the day off school just to watch it. The shows were shown at round 1-2am in the morning and so I would stay up till 5am just to watch them.
The next day I was so tired I would stay in bed till late in the afternoon. Whole days were wasted just because of the wrestling shows. I brought all WWE merchandise from stickers to DVDs, posters, magazines, calendars, etc. I spent thousands on that alone let alone the pay-per-views that came on every month and I would watch every single one. People couldn’t understand why I was so hooked on it. It was an escape from what I was going though inside. I was doing badly at school and I had a lot of issues going on at home and within myself.
"I brought all WWE merchandise from stickers
to DVDs, posters, magazines, calendars etc…I spent
thousands on that alone..."
And on top of that I was drinking alcohol. I felt as my life had no meaning any more so I even contemplated suicide.
I would write death notes to my mum, but I was just too afraid to kill myself. There were times where I held a knife to my throat, times when I felt an urge to jump off the balcony from my second floor flat; and several times I nearly took an overdose. But I could never go to the extreme for some reason.
I would always smile to hide what I was going through but behind the smile I was just crumbling inside. I realised I didn’t have self-control anymore, the alcohol and TV was my life.
One day I saw an advert about the VYG's Rusx play and decided to come to watch. I spoke to a pastor who gave advice to start attending Friday services for spiritual cleansing. That's when things really started to change.
Not that everything changed but I lost the desire to watch wrestling, and drink alcohol.
I’ve let go of all of that and started to apply the messages that I learnt at the Victory Youth Group and in the HelpCentre services.
Today, I’m so happy, I have self-control, I’m on top of things and not the other way round, I’m not addicted anymore and I’m not depressed anymore - I don’t hide behind a fake smile. God gave me true inner peace.
Kiran Kaur,
Finsbury Park
